It's been a while.

I want to start writing here again. So, now I'm starting. I don't know if anyone will read this, but it's ok either way.

I've been listening to Sufjan Stevens' songs a lot recently.

My favorites are "To Be Alone with You"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dTc--0sZbrE ,

and "For the Widows in Paradise, For the Fatherless in Ypsilanti."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0RmbMZk4eJQ

I think I like them so much because they make me think of Jesus.

"To Be Alone with You" reminds me of how loved I am by him. I'm a hot mess, but Jesus still wants to be alone with me. For me, that's one of the biggest ways to give love to someone...to want to be around them... to spend time with them. To just be in their presence. Whether you're talking or sitting in silence.

And "For the Widows in Paradise, For the Fatherless in Ypsilanti".... mmmm... it's just so good. Here are some of the lyrics:

"I have called you children, I have called you son. What is there to answer if I'm the only one?

If there's anything to say, if there's anything to do. If there's any other way, I'll do anything for you.

I was dressed embarrassment, I was dressed in wine. If you have a part of me, will you take your time?

Is there some idea to replace my life?

I have called you preacher, I have called you son. If you have a father, or if you haven't one.

I did everything for you."

So beautiful. We're completely loved and accepted. Regardless of everything. What the frick?! (in a good way).

That's all i have for now.